I guess when your Father sends you an email asking if you're alright, because not only hasn't anyone seen me or heard from me, but I haven't blogged, it's time to sit down and check in. Let me first explain, it's not all that odd that that my Dad hasn't heard from me, we don't live all that close, and well, oddly enough, i'm quite anti social, i'll text before call any day of the week, I'll gladly accept you're invitation to go out for drinks, then cancel at the last minute. I guess I just think that if anything bad happens, I'll hear about it (and i eventually do), and, well, if anything good happens, someone will get around to telling me that too. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents, If they lived around the block i'd probably stop by for coffee almost every day. But when it's a little towards an hours drive to see them, and I only have 2 days off a week, and of those two days, one is entirely spent cleaning my tiny little house, catching the fur balls that run across the hard wood floors, spending time with my beloved husband, who, i NEVER get to see, and training this impossible 5 month old terror of a puppy. Back in my Grandmothers day i think i would have just been called a "homebody", which i don't think back then was frowned upon, was it?? These days it's seems so important to make connections, socialize, meet the neighbors, join a group. But why? I guess for me, the fact that i work with the public seems to fit that void, I make my connections at work, I join things that have to do with technology, because it's related to my job. Too bad that those things are all done on a computer, talking to people via Twitter or Facebook. Spending hours discovering interesting people on Flickr that i may never ever meet. Who cares?? I do, however feel really guilty when the people that stop in here to beestudio send me little messages asking where i've been and tell me that they miss me. I think about posting everyday, then there never seems to be enough time, honestly, i received movies for Christmas that I still have yet to watch, I have 2 books, intended for a book club that I just couldn't join, sitting on my night stand. Hey, I even have two bottles of good wine sitting on the counter for weeks now, that i haven't had the time to open and enjoy (CRAZY!). Oh, and then there's my photography! Don't get me started, really. 2010 is shaping up to be my most uncreative year yet! I feel as if I'm just not "seeing" the way i used to. Every image i upload just looks regular, nothing that i want to share. So, I'm sorry everyone, really I am. I love that you stop by and that you miss me, I'll try and stay on top of things here. With any luck the snow will melt, the crocuses will peek out from under the ground and I will have the peony's and poppies to look forward to. And of course as soon as i say that the first little flurries are starting to fall from the sky... here's some shots from my walk on the beach the other day, it felt so good to breath in the ocean air and clear my head
and then there was this photo from a group I took at twilight, when I noticed that there was a huge spot on the sensor of my camera, and i thought i was really in trouble. Thanks to a really good friend with really nice cameras, I had a loaner the next day and mine was fixed within the week. Now I have NO excuses.
see you all really soon, i promise! I love you Daddy!